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SO hey, how's everyone been doing? Been swimming lately? Behaving yourselves?
I've been on a bit of a roller coaster emotionally since I last posted a journal. Some relationships became rocky, I became depressed - to the point of not even wanting to leave my bed. That was January tho', so don't worry. Since then I've been a bit better - if not feeling a bit lonely sometimes and don't know what to do with myself. Nothing having a PC of my own doesn't help. However since Spring has been coming into motion I've been getting up and doing stuff... well I was before I got the flu that was turning some people's vital organs into liquid shit. Damn, it was on par with the Bronchitis I had a few years ago. Thankfully I'm just about over it by now tho' - the flu I mean.
Health aside, since I couldn't use my tablet I've been drawing traditionally lately while listening to my old albums (a small collection since everything's digital these days). I've been even drawing more porn lately... d-don't ask why, I have no clue. D-don't ask to see it either, I'm not sure if I'm ready to share it yet, lol. Ultimately, I've been sketching to keep up.
Something nice about drawing girls groping each other while listening to Gorillaz and sipping Bourbon.
On other things, I've also been trying to make my apartment my own after all these years of not caring about it. Clearing out all the old stuff that was left behind and rearranging to make more sense and space. This is a part of my list of 'things to do'. Getting my PC and SD TV (for PS2 era and below gaming) fixed are on there too. Not to mention paying off medical bills... meh. But yes, PC fixing shouldn't be too rough it's just.... *sigh* all the reformatting.... all the redownloading... remembering what sites I had saved... pffff-pfft pft pfft... at the least I was able to back up my media stuff. Y'know, pictures I started, stream videos i didn't get to clip for highlights, porn...
I'll figure something out soon hopefully, but till then it's using my gaming devices awkwardly and borrowing other peoples PCs for several hours.
Hope everyone's doing alright considering dA is getting quieter and quieter.
Later.
-Twardz
SO hey, how's everyone been doing? Been swimming lately? Behaving yourselves?
I've been on a bit of a roller coaster emotionally since I last posted a journal. Some relationships became rocky, I became depressed - to the point of not even wanting to leave my bed. That was January tho', so don't worry. Since then I've been a bit better - if not feeling a bit lonely sometimes and don't know what to do with myself. Nothing having a PC of my own doesn't help. However since Spring has been coming into motion I've been getting up and doing stuff... well I was before I got the flu that was turning some people's vital organs into liquid shit. Damn, it was on par with the Bronchitis I had a few years ago. Thankfully I'm just about over it by now tho' - the flu I mean.
Health aside, since I couldn't use my tablet I've been drawing traditionally lately while listening to my old albums (a small collection since everything's digital these days). I've been even drawing more porn lately... d-don't ask why, I have no clue. D-don't ask to see it either, I'm not sure if I'm ready to share it yet, lol. Ultimately, I've been sketching to keep up.
Something nice about drawing girls groping each other while listening to Gorillaz and sipping Bourbon.
On other things, I've also been trying to make my apartment my own after all these years of not caring about it. Clearing out all the old stuff that was left behind and rearranging to make more sense and space. This is a part of my list of 'things to do'. Getting my PC and SD TV (for PS2 era and below gaming) fixed are on there too. Not to mention paying off medical bills... meh. But yes, PC fixing shouldn't be too rough it's just.... *sigh* all the reformatting.... all the redownloading... remembering what sites I had saved... pffff-pfft pft pfft... at the least I was able to back up my media stuff. Y'know, pictures I started, stream videos i didn't get to clip for highlights, porn...
I'll figure something out soon hopefully, but till then it's using my gaming devices awkwardly and borrowing other peoples PCs for several hours.
Hope everyone's doing alright considering dA is getting quieter and quieter.
Later.
-Twardz
Update, but not really?
Don't know if you can really call this an update as it's pretty much the same as the last time I wrote a journal, but at least this time I'm giving a little more reason as to why I'm like this now. Ever since 2015 I've had a hard talking to anyone because I never know what little thing will set off a political rant and/or fight. Been bashful about making any kind of art work that covered sensitive subjects too. The tribe mentality and zealot behavior that took over social circles disgusted me very much as well. It just seemed really hypocritical to me - the way that certain people would pride themselves on caring about others but would try to ruin or threaten the lives of others that didn't agree with them or subscribe to the same ideology. I blame my one friend for convincing me to make a tumblr account back then. Got to see how ugly, twisted and willing to spread misinformation people really are. I had to even delete my Facebook because I was sick of telling people I know IRL to
Yearly Update kinda.
So I'm doing this like once a year now I guess.
All that comes to mind is that I've actually been cutting myself off more and more from social interaction and I'm forgetting stuff very easily. Really don't want to do much except play video games, work, pay bills, drink beer and getting pissed at people doing/saying stupid shit. Probably the deaths of people i know happening roughly around the same time yearly (yes it happened this year too, a neighbor/friend of my family), and remembering some traumatic stuff from childhood that I had blocked out has me pretty messed up.
TL;DR - I've become incredibly anti-social and lethargic. My apologies
Oh look, this shit again.
It's been roughly a year since I last made a journal entry here. Since then I had some new watchers but since I haven't put anything out much lately. I apologize to them and my regular watchers (if they're still around) for being so slow.
I suppose I should start with the major occurrence. My cousin that lived (and co-owned) in the same apartment building as my brother and I died in a car accident a few months ago. It was quite hectic trying to get everything sorted out with his girlfriend that was living there with him and his three daughters who only visited every other Wednesday. My brother and I welcomed his girlfriend to stay as long as
Rant kinda, I guess.
I suppose it's time I spoke up. A lot of things have been bothering me lately and I just can't seem to get passed them. That's why I've been having trouble getting myself to commit to drawing or talking much on here. So in order to alleviate some stress on myself, I'm going to make a journal about what's bothering me. I don't know what to expect from doing this but I figure I at least owe a bit of an explanation.
Last year I had a falling out with my important someone and kind of had an on-again/off-again relationship for a few months (not going to get into the details). A lot of this was during the time my PC was down and a big reason I did
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Senators? Really? That's a hockey team's name? You silly North-Americans and your team names ...
Glad you are better from the flu, although I didn't know it in the first place. Also, it seems you have a lot of work to do for the next month, considering everything you are listing ... I'm still hoping for you to eventually make a stream this year, because I really enjoyed the last one, but I'd understand if you'd find yourself in no such condition.
Pah, what am I talking about? I'm so busy myself, I wouldn't be able to attend before end of summer anyway. But I'd be happy myself to see you doing the stuff you like: playing video games while chatting away with friends.
Although I wish I had the same confidence in my free time to try drawing what you are doing.
Glad you are better from the flu, although I didn't know it in the first place. Also, it seems you have a lot of work to do for the next month, considering everything you are listing ... I'm still hoping for you to eventually make a stream this year, because I really enjoyed the last one, but I'd understand if you'd find yourself in no such condition.
Pah, what am I talking about? I'm so busy myself, I wouldn't be able to attend before end of summer anyway. But I'd be happy myself to see you doing the stuff you like: playing video games while chatting away with friends.
Although I wish I had the same confidence in my free time to try drawing what you are doing.